I get male attention pretty much however I look, because that is the nature of our society and in many cases, of men. I'm not really bothered by that, although I will speak up and object if I think the attention was disrespectful. I am heterosexual and want to be able to get attention from at least one guy, because I do want to get married one day. It's not the attention itself that worries me, then, but the type of attention.
It might be just in my head, but the way I look with short, dyed hair and piercings (not as many as I'd like because of my stupid sensitive body *sniff*) helps to discourage the guys who would not be interested in a girlfriend who calls God "zie" instead of "he", doesn't shave her legs or armpits, has no interest in cooking or children and wants to be able to fart around her boyfriend. It doesn't tell them all that, of course, but it does warn them that I'm not your average Christian girl (I live in a city of 400,000 and know one other Christian girl with brightly coloured hair - not that I know all the Christians in my city, but I do see a lot of them in my work).
When I think about growing my hair long, I'm kind of excited. It's been so long since it's been long that it's actually back to being a new experience for me, which I always love. I also think that I will look pretty with long hair, in a different way to how I look pretty with short hair. It is something I want, but at the same time I'm not sure I do, because I'm afraid that it will get me more attention from guys and that is something I do not want. I'm afraid of meeting someone, having him show interest in me, open up a little and then have him run the other way. It has happened before - either that, or he starts trying to make me dye my hair and get rid of my piercings. I deal with that by telling and showing people my weirdness up front, so they can leave before I care. Growing my hair will take away one thing that's likely to scare boys away.
|See? What guy wouldn't love that?|
|Sometimes I get bored of my usual faces.|